Week 17

I am finally back. It seems the weight on my shoulders had finally lifted and i can finally enjoy a good night sleep without horrible nightmares and dreams. It has been the longest month ever and alot had happen since my last update.

It is recommended for all pregnant woman to go through an OSCAR SCAN when they are 12-13 weeks pregnant. This test helps to see whether the baby has a high chance of Down Syndrome (i dont want to further explain, but here is the simple explanation provide by wiki -http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Down_syndrome). Unfortunately, when my test results came back, it shown i was on the boarder line of passing… and that my baby might have a higher chance of down syndrome as indicated by the test. When the doctor informed me the results, i really thought it was the end of the world, i wasnt sure how to react, it wasnt like they are saying the baby has Down Syndrome, but just the fact that it might happen devestated me. I didnt know what to do if the baby did have it. Rob was very supportive although I can sense his anxiety.

The next step was to take the aminocentesis test, this test inserts a thin needle from the stomach into the womb, where it will then extract fluids for test for all for any chorosomes disorder including Down Syndrome, it will tell us 100% whether the baby has Down Syndrome, it will no longer be a guessing game. I wanted to take that test straight away after gaining results back from the OSCAR SCAN. It was traumatic to know i would not be able to do the test until another month, when i am 17 weeks pergnant. This is to ensure there are enought fluids in the womb to be extracted and that the process will cause no harm to the baby.

What a month it has been, I went into hiding, I was away from msn, xanga and even facebook,I only told a couple of close friends the current situation and was not prepare explaining my situation to anyone else.. there was not a single day which went by without my sincere prayers to God. and I know many of my friends prayed for me and my baby during this period. and that i am truly grateful for.

it was finally week 17 on Monday, the test was a success and results came back the next day. My baby is ok and healthy, without down syndrome. I can finally sleep without thinking about losing him. I had taken the rest of the week off to rest at home, there is still a slight chance of miscarriage because I had taken the aminocentesis test, so i shall be extra careful this week, as Doctor says if it happens, it will be 1-2 weeks after the test. So far i am feeling fine, but i cant help been too careful.

On this entry, i would also like to dedicated this post to my friend Priscilla, she had just lost her twins (5 months pregnant) and the news saddens me. I wanted to help ease the pain although as a mother, i can understand the pain and scarring it will have on her. Please dedicate your prayers to her and her family, may she go through this time with strength and courage. And that she knows her family and friends are supporting her and will be around her when she calls.

3 Months

Finally, i can let the big secret out!! its like a huge rock just lifted from my shoulders. Its so hard not to say anything to close friends, lucky I had a couple of them who were smart enough to figure it out when i said i couldnt eat sushi or rare steaks for awhile!

Had an ultrasound appointment yesterday, and the B has gotten much bigger!! it is in a clearer sharp, the little head and bottom are very define. Dr. Lee even commented on the B’s big feet (which i wasnt sure which part he was looking at). I will be having another Test on the 13th, standard test to see if the B has down syndrome, the doctor said its very standard and that the test takes place around week 13-14. I pray daily for the B’s health, i am sure my prayers will be answerd, the exciting thing about the test is i get to find out whether is a HE or SHE. Actually Rob is more concern, he said he has no preference, but i know his preference is a Boy, me on the other hand, i have no preference. I am happy with a daughter or a son. I know he or she will be friends with twins when they are born next year, a friend is bearing twins now, and her twins are due about 1 month earlier than mine. I am so excited for her.

A friend once told me I will be seeing alot of pregnant women around, somehow pregnant women attracts each other. Just today’s lunch, i think i saw around 5 – 6 pregnant women walked pass me, i dont ever notice there were so many around before, its wierd. But most of them have 1 thing in common, their maternity style is not exactly great.. i am so worried about not having anything nice to wear because the maternity choices are so LITTLE…. i refuse to wear curtain pattern dresses… i went to topshop online and their maternity line looks great!~! but i cant believe they ship to Sydney~ but not to HONG KONG..i will keep searching… But first thing is first, i think i want to buy a pair of maternity jeans! already know where to go for them hehe, hopefully i will score something after work today!

New Chapter

God had granted R and I a nice little surprise.

It all started when my period was late for 7 days in August, I knew either something was wrong or I am pregnant. It was hard to comprehend, there were a million of reasons and scenrios going through my head. But i know the most logical thing to do was to buy a pregnancy test from chemist first, at least it will provide some kind of closure.

I went to Mannings, closest chemist from where i work, there were so many brands but all stating 99.9% accuracy. So, I ended choosing one that costed the most (all girls usually believe the more expensive something is, the better quality it is, its goes for clothes, handbags and shoes! and I am sure its the same for pregnancy test!). As soon as i got home, i bolted to the toilet, i unwrapped the test and did what the instructions told me, but somehow i was nervous, and I think i farked up the test since i accidently urinated on areas which i wasn’t suppose to @_@… although the test showed +, I was not convinced at all (since the fark up could affect the test results (right!? i have no idea)). By then, I feel extremely DUMB that i didn’t just buy 2-3 tests as back up!! I didn’t get much sleep that night………..

The next morning, went back to mannings, I went straight to the shelve and picked up 2 different tests. Both tests came back positive.

I was excited and yet stress. I am not sure how to be a mother, thought someone once told me my maternal instincts will kick in immediately when you realize you are pregnant, and yet, i think up to now I am still awaiting for that motherly feeling to rush in. I was stress and wished i had gave up smoking much earlier (I am now smoke free for 2 weeks, it is actually not hard…. ), it was wierd that i suddenly wanted to stop smoking before i found out i was pregnant, maybe the child is talking to me subconsciously?

Men…

A married couple in their early 60s was celebrating their 40th wedding anniversiary in a quiet, romantic little restaurant. Suddenly, a tiny yet beautiful fairy appeared on their table, she said, ‘For being such an exemplary married couple and for being loving to each other for all this time, I will grant you each a wish.’

The wife answerd, ‘Oh, I want to travel around the world with my darling husband.’

The fairy waved her magic want and poof!! Two tickets for the Queen Mary II appeared in her hands.

The husband thought for a moment, ‘Well, this is all very romantic, but an opportunity like this will never come again. I am sorry my love, but my wish is to have a wfe 30 years youngers than me.’

The wife and the fairy were deeply disappointed, but a wish is a wish. So the fairy waved her magic wand and poof!!…the husband became 92 years old.

THE MORAL of this story, MEN WHO ARE UNGRATEFUL BASTARDS should REMEMBER Faires are female….

Professional Commentaries

I am so sick of watching the Olympics on TVB (Cantonese channel in Hong Kong). In any sane nation, when it comes to the Olympics, they have the best professional from all areas of sports and top journalists covering stories or hosting live broadcasts.

Only in Hong Kong will they invite losers singers and actors and Miss Hong Kong to host the Olympics.

I am sick of their annoying comments like: “OMG, Phelps is so FAST in the pool!!”—What the fark, do we really need you to tell us he is fast?! or ” Ooooo, Isinbaeva is just like Miss Universe!”—um, how about showing us the god damn World Record Pole Vault Jump (5.05m) instead of saying she is HOT! (they totally skipped that jump last night!~~ and the farking host said she failed all attempts when she had 1 more chance!!!! i want to BOMB their station!aghhhhhhh)

I wish I had moved out already, then i can watch olympics on Cable or HD channels, but now i am stuck with losers commentaries and annoying ugly Miss Hong Kong from morning till night! I hate Hong Kong sometimes!!! Pathetic!

Dream

I was not sure which movie we chose, the theatre was dark, the atmosphere seemed intense. I do not think it was a romance nor was it horror. I just know we were not concerned about the movie we were watching, we were just in our own world enjoying our moment together. The intimacy between us was strong, its like an electric pulse that connected us when our hands held tightly together.

Just when i wanted to concentrate on the movie, it seemed there was a strong current that pushed us out to another scenery. We flashed to a restaurant, it was decorated with flowers, i am not good with flowers, I just remember it was beautiful, and the scent was unforgettably my favourite perfume. The table was conveniently set on their balcony, it was over looking the ocean, with cool breeze brushing against my cheeks. I remember the aroma of strong coffee, but I cant remember the supposingly fantastic tasting menu,  I just remember we laughed alot during our conversation. The mood was so relax and it was like a holiday with no ending.

We took a short walk along the beach, the sky was filled with stars, there were so many, and it was just as I remember the starry night when I was visiting the australian country side in highschool. It was so vivid and real. The path we took led to a small villa, we went inside, there was a large bed, all in fresh white linens and fluffy pillows, its like the most comfortable bed that anyone could ever own. Then there was music, it was a familiar song sung by Lee Hom. The music and lyrics were getting louder and louder, and i was searching hard to where the stereo was………..

then my eyes was struggling to open, but I had to since the familiar hand was on my shoulder asking me to turned off my sonyericsson’s alarm (yes.. was using lee hom’s song for the alarm tone)

I rarely dream now days, and this one had got to be 1 of the best dream I had have for along time. How I wish i knew how the story continued, what happened after flopping ourselves on the nice bed…. wish there was no time limit and that i didn’t need to get up for work that morning arghhhhhhhh. I was definitely reading too much, way to caught up in my romantic novel, Breaking Dawn. 

Wierd Xangans

Honestly, I had never blocked anyone from my xanga before. The only time which I did happened when I just first started blogging. I was reading alot of Chinese blogs back then, great to say I met some great xangans there, but there were some wierdos around.

There was this xangan named azurejan, the blog receives large numbers of subscribers, mostly females. The contents were mostly more girly stuff, things related to love and passages with a romantic essence (if I remember correctly). At the time, I was also 1 of the many female subscribers which keep up with its entries daily.

One fine day, azurejan posted another entry, this time the entry was slightly different. It was confession entry explaining how he was sorry for pretending to be a girl all this time, when he was actually a MALE blogger. I have to admit I was abit dumbfounded when reading that entry, since I didnt think why anyone will need to be hiding his gender when blogging. At the time, I was chatting to a xangan on msn, she reacted quite angrily to his confession and as a result, she commented on the post stating he was pretty much a freakshow for pretending to be girl all along when he was guy and also married etc etc..

I have to admit, I was abit turned off the fact someone would do that and its obvious he was just trying to meet more FEMALES acquitances? at the end, many subscribers left, and some blocked him including myself.

The point of the story is, today, my dearest Mika msn’ed me, asked me if I remember azurejan. I told her YES, and that I blocked him, I said I just remember him been some kind of a freakshow but cant really remember what he did exactly. She said she was briefly chatting to him the other day, and she asked him why he was no longer blogging (correct me if i am wrong Mika dear), his answer was, he no longer blogs because of ME. So mika was curious as to what happened between us (probably thought it was some mad affair and turned nasty, and that it slightly resembled to fatal attraction but in our case, no one was killed?).

I was like WTF? I dont even remember what happened back then, and I cant believe some people would still give a fark about this sort of shxt. You lost subcribers, so what? Its not like its the end of the farking world right!? I am just slightly Freaked out that someone would still remember the fact that I UNSUBCRIBED/BLOCKED HIM and still be talking about it after 2-3 years later(um.. its no wonder i blocked him, what a loser!)? You would think I got him arrested for been a pychopath on xanga and I made every girl who read his blog spat on him and as a result, he drowned from the Spits. I swear i did no such thing (or did i?), even if i did… its only INTERNET. People should really spend more time worrying about things in reality.

Olympics 080808

I am not slightly excited about the olympics opening ceremony tonight. Does that make me wierd?

I think i was more excited for Sydney Olympics in 2000.

Yea, I guess I dont really have a soft spot for China.

It seemed when olympics are held in other cities, there was not a huge fuss about it. I mean, there would be the usual propaganda, but in China, its not propaganda, its EVERYTHING. From traffic control, to controlling the weather, controlling the pollution, issue on tibet, mongolia and even taiwan. I hope the olympics will go smoothly for Beijing, at least, there wouldnt be so much talk afterwards.

posting 1:29am

its not beijing.. but a bomb in CAUSEWAY BAY? WTF?

news of the day

http://www.appleactionews.com/site/art_main.cfm?&iss_id=20080807&sec_id=6996647&art_id=11443602&dis_type=text&media_id=1

I figure I have to do a post for this link since most of you would not know how to read chinese.

it basically translates to below:

At around 12midnight, a 40 year old man was exercising on a park bench at a park near his residence. The man was performing push ups with his genital exposed. While he was performing push up, his genital will be by passing a inch diameter hole on the parkbench (please refer to picture). Unfortunately, during one of his odd “movement”, his genital was stuck in the hole, and he was unable to remove his penis. He tried with blunt force, and it only hurt more. The 40 year old started screaming due to enormous pain, it startled a few pedestrians near by and they subsequently called 999 (equivalent to 911) for assistance.

When the Firemen arrived, man’s penis was still throbbing and it would not deflate, fireman was not sure what they can do to help. After a short discussion, they called in 2 medical experts and also 2 doctors stationed at the near by hospital to the scene to assit with the rescue. Doctors had to insert 2 needles to remove blood from throbbing penis and try to get it to deflate on its own. At the end, Fireman had to cut the bench out from its stands, together with the bench, he was sent to the hospital for further treatment.

According to Firemen, it was believe the victim had been taking drug similar to viagra before “exercising”

what a lunatic.. he wanted to fark a park bench!? shxt, there are so many wierdos here in HK.

Bad Ass

As inspired by brandonlkj, I want to elaborate the topic of the GOOD GUY, BAD GUY. It seesm statiscally (thats just asking all of my girlfriends which is around 10? ….), 100% of girls prefer BAD BOYS. I for one preferred bad boy too, and now married to one @_@.

I guess guys in general are dumbfounded by this idea, they just dont understand why girls would prefer having a bad ass boyfriend instead of picking the good guy. The answer is simple, GIRLS dont define BAD BOY the same way as guys.

Guys usually associate BAD with cheating or having 10 girlfriends at the same time (and that there are still around 20 hot girls lining up to hook up with them). But girls dont want BAD ASS boyfriend that cheats on them! BAD in our dictionary just means FUN and not BORING, ok, maybe he can have 1 bad vice, thats usually drinking or smoking (not a bad vice to me as I smoke too), or in my case GAMBLING -_-, but note, its never ever BAD ASS guy that has so much love to give and thinks he is Jesus—–> thats is defn not defintion of BAD ASS Boyfriend.

Good guys that befriend with their Warcraft and dont have any REAL friends are unattractive, however, these are guys that dont tend have to alot of female friends, nor do they have guy friends that organise Guys night every other 2 nights, so to girls, they seem the perfect candidate, but would they know what to say to charm you? If they dont have experience with many girls, how you think they will act around you? After all practice makes perfect, and thats with relationships too!

I must say, bad boys are great boyfriends, but when relationship turns to MARRIAGE, every girl wants their husband to be GOOD… haha.. now I wish he would stay home and chat with their Warcraft friends online and not online checking out what soccer match is available to bet…but no one is perfect let alone your husband!!