My Childhood Buddies

There is 1 girlfriend KH which i am still very much in touch with, we known each other the longest, practically since the day we born (still have 1 photograph of both us when we were a few months old? very very cute^c*). Its amazing how after all these years we can still come out and chat about the old days, laugh at our own stupidity and silliness, how good it was to be kids then...although we lived our lives separately in different parts of the world, there was always a bond when we meet up again. I am glad God had granted me her friendship, although we might not be as close now as we were kids, but there is always a connection which holds us together, afterall she is practically family to me and i am glad to have her in my life.

Recently, another childhood friend had floated out from the deep end of the ocean. I dont remember when our family had grown apart, or what happend exactly, but i had not seen or heard from them for at least 10 years. I was shocked to hear my mum having dinner with them one night a few weeks ago. When i spoke to my mum, she was very happy to have met with them again, she told me she cried and got abit emotional,. she was very happy to know  they are all ok even when their family experienced some tragic downturns. Out of the 3 children, me and KH were closest to the Son, CK, who is around the same age as us. My memories of him still revolved around him and his superman underpants and how we always try to pull jokes on him since he was the only BOY there.

As soon as I got his contact from my mum, I was keen to organise a gathering with CK and KH. it was just dinner on a monday night., but it was nice, we chatted about past and present.....but not so much about KH's past years.. but I am sure CK understood that it was a tough time for her back a few years ago.

The most annoying thing which I found was how CK looked much younger than us, although I WAS SUPPOSE TO BE YOUNGEST. I guess chinese male had always had the advantage of looking younger compare to femeles.

To CK: I am glad to have gotten back in contact with you, I guess there are always some friends in life which we think about when you had lost contact with them, and you were defn 1 of them. Although you had some rough time in the past years, but its not the end of the tunnel yet.. there are still much things in life worth living and pursuing for, and you have a long way to go. I am sure you will be able to live your life the way you want very soon....

Week 17

I am finally back. It seems the weight on my shoulders had finally lifted and i can finally enjoy a good night sleep without horrible nightmares and dreams. It has been the longest month ever and alot had happen since my last update.

It is recommended for all pregnant woman to go through an OSCAR SCAN when they are 12-13 weeks pregnant. This test helps to see whether the baby has a high chance of Down Syndrome (i dont want to further explain, but here is the simple explanation provide by wiki -http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Down_syndrome). Unfortunately, when my test results came back, it shown i was on the boarder line of passing... and that my baby might have a higher chance of down syndrome as indicated by the test. When the doctor informed me the results, i really thought it was the end of the world, i wasnt sure how to react, it wasnt like they are saying the baby has Down Syndrome, but just the fact that it might happen devestated me. I didnt know what to do if the baby did have it. Rob was very supportive although I can sense his anxiety.

The next step was to take the aminocentesis test, this test inserts a thin needle from the stomach into the womb, where it will then extract fluids for test for all for any chorosomes disorder including Down Syndrome, it will tell us 100% whether the baby has Down Syndrome, it will no longer be a guessing game. I wanted to take that test straight away after gaining results back from the OSCAR SCAN. It was traumatic to know i would not be able to do the test until another month, when i am 17 weeks pergnant. This is to ensure there are enought fluids in the womb to be extracted and that the process will cause no harm to the baby.

What a month it has been, I went into hiding, I was away from msn, xanga and even facebook,I only told a couple of close friends the current situation and was not prepare explaining my situation to anyone else.. there was not a single day which went by without my sincere prayers to God. and I know many of my friends prayed for me and my baby during this period. and that i am truly grateful for.

it was finally week 17 on Monday, the test was a success and results came back the next day. My baby is ok and healthy, without down syndrome. I can finally sleep without thinking about losing him. I had taken the rest of the week off to rest at home, there is still a slight chance of miscarriage because I had taken the aminocentesis test, so i shall be extra careful this week, as Doctor says if it happens, it will be 1-2 weeks after the test. So far i am feeling fine, but i cant help been too careful.

On this entry, i would also like to dedicated this post to my friend Priscilla, she had just lost her twins (5 months pregnant) and the news saddens me. I wanted to help ease the pain although as a mother, i can understand the pain and scarring it will have on her. Please dedicate your prayers to her and her family, may she go through this time with strength and courage. And that she knows her family and friends are supporting her and will be around her when she calls.