October 2, 2008

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  New Chapter

  God had granted R and I a nice little surprise.

  It all started when my period was late for 7 days in August, I knew either something was wrong or I am pregnant. It was hard to comprehend, there were a million of reasons and scenrios going through my head. But i know the most logical thing to do was to buy a pregnancy test from chemist first, at least it will provide some kind of closure.

  I went to Mannings, closest chemist from where i work, there were so many brands but all stating 99.9% accuracy. So, I ended choosing one that costed the most (all girls usually believe the more expensive something is, the better quality it is, its goes for clothes, handbags and shoes! and I am sure its the same for pregnancy test!). As soon as i got home, i bolted to the toilet, i unwrapped the test and did what the instructions told me, but somehow i was nervous, and I think i farked up the test since i accidently urinated on areas which i wasn’t suppose to @_@… although the test showed +, I was not convinced at all (since the fark up could affect the test results (right!? i have no idea)). By then, I feel extremely DUMB that i didn’t just buy 2-3 tests as back up!! I didn’t get much sleep that night………..

  The next morning, went back to mannings, I went straight to the shelve and picked up 2 different tests. Both tests came back positive.

  I was excited and yet stress. I am not sure how to be a mother, thought someone once told me my maternal instincts will kick in immediately when you realize you are pregnant, and yet, i think up to now I am still awaiting for that motherly feeling to rush in. I was stress and wished i had gave up smoking much earlier (I am now smoke free for 2 weeks, it is actually not hard…. ), it was wierd that i suddenly wanted to stop smoking before i found out i was pregnant, maybe the child is talking to me subconsciously?

   

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