3 Months

Finally, i can let the big secret out!! its like a huge rock just lifted from my shoulders. Its so hard not to say anything to close friends, lucky I had a couple of them who were smart enough to figure it out when i said i couldnt eat sushi or rare steaks for awhile!

Had an ultrasound appointment yesterday, and the B has gotten much bigger!! it is in a clearer sharp, the little head and bottom are very define. Dr. Lee even commented on the B's big feet (which i wasnt sure which part he was looking at). I will be having another Test on the 13th, standard test to see if the B has down syndrome, the doctor said its very standard and that the test takes place around week 13-14. I pray daily for the B's health, i am sure my prayers will be answerd, the exciting thing about the test is i get to find out whether is a HE or SHE. Actually Rob is more concern, he said he has no preference, but i know his preference is a Boy, me on the other hand, i have no preference. I am happy with a daughter or a son. I know he or she will be friends with twins when they are born next year, a friend is bearing twins now, and her twins are due about 1 month earlier than mine. I am so excited for her.

A friend once told me I will be seeing alot of pregnant women around, somehow pregnant women attracts each other. Just today's lunch, i think i saw around 5 - 6 pregnant women walked pass me, i dont ever notice there were so many around before, its wierd. But most of them have 1 thing in common, their maternity style is not exactly great.. i am so worried about not having anything nice to wear because the maternity choices are so LITTLE.... i refuse to wear curtain pattern dresses... i went to topshop online and their maternity line looks great!~! but i cant believe they ship to Sydney~ but not to HONG KONG..i will keep searching... But first thing is first, i think i want to buy a pair of maternity jeans! already know where to go for them hehe, hopefully i will score something after work today!

New Chapter

God had granted R and I a nice little surprise.

It all started when my period was late for 7 days in August, I knew either something was wrong or I am pregnant. It was hard to comprehend, there were a million of reasons and scenrios going through my head. But i know the most logical thing to do was to buy a pregnancy test from chemist first, at least it will provide some kind of closure.

I went to Mannings, closest chemist from where i work, there were so many brands but all stating 99.9% accuracy. So, I ended choosing one that costed the most (all girls usually believe the more expensive something is, the better quality it is, its goes for clothes, handbags and shoes! and I am sure its the same for pregnancy test!). As soon as i got home, i bolted to the toilet, i unwrapped the test and did what the instructions told me, but somehow i was nervous, and I think i farked up the test since i accidently urinated on areas which i wasn't suppose to @_@... although the test showed +, I was not convinced at all (since the fark up could affect the test results (right!? i have no idea)). By then, I feel extremely DUMB that i didn't just buy 2-3 tests as back up!! I didn't get much sleep that night...........

The next morning, went back to mannings, I went straight to the shelve and picked up 2 different tests. Both tests came back positive.

I was excited and yet stress. I am not sure how to be a mother, thought someone once told me my maternal instincts will kick in immediately when you realize you are pregnant, and yet, i think up to now I am still awaiting for that motherly feeling to rush in. I was stress and wished i had gave up smoking much earlier (I am now smoke free for 2 weeks, it is actually not hard.... ), it was wierd that i suddenly wanted to stop smoking before i found out i was pregnant, maybe the child is talking to me subconsciously?